We'll love you just the way you are (if you're perfect).

"Be a good girl, you gotta try a little harder.
That simply wasn't good enough to make us proud.

I'll live for you, I'll make you what I never was.
If you're the best then maybe so am I
Compared to him, compared to her.
I'm doing this for your own damn good.
You'll make up for what I blew.
What's the problem, why are you crying?"

Alanis Morissette

You can go, but please don't leave.

Katie is not a happy camper.

I feel like I'm permanently stuck in one of those moods where absolutely everything that happens, no matter how small, just makes me cry. I'm a seahorse. Yes, that's it. I am a seahorse.

Joanna Newsom said that the seahorse was her favorite animal, but she wouldn't want to be one because they always look so sad. Look at this guy. He looks miserable. I guess it's because they're all hunched over like that. They're such down-lookers. They sure are pretty, though.

I don't think I'd mind being a seahorse. The ocean seems like a beautiful place to live. Dangerous maybe, but look what we're dealing with up here. It's terrifying. I mean, I might not have a place to live next semester. At least if I were a seahorse, I'd know where to live.

Not to mention I would be absolutely gorgeous. Probably the envy of the whole ocean. I don't think I've ever seen an ugly seahorse before.

I bought one of teacher's tea bowls today. It's my new favorite. I will be drinking everything from cranberry juice to coffee out of it. I just hope it doesn't fall over and die one day. Then I'll really be devastated.

I'm really going to miss ceramics. It's a total pain, but it's really fun. Very stress relieving. I wish I had a pug of clay in my room for everytime I was upset. It would be the most wedged clay on the planet. I bet it would feel super special.

Teapots and jars this week. Only somewhat dreading.

I think I miss Josh way more than I should.

If I ever find truth, I'm gonna let you know.

I'm slowly getting more and more terrible at figure drawing.
I think I picked the wrong major.
But it's too late now.
I've put too much into it.
I just hope I make it through review.

I think I'm just going to start over on Tuesday. Completely. The whole drawing. I'm just gonna go crazy with it. Ink. Charcoal. Whatever. The emotion is "loathing." I loathe just about everything right now. I should be a pro at it.

Tomorrow should be epic. Apartment hunting. I have no idea what to expect. So far it's been a gruesome experience.

On a happier note: the Train station on Pandora is magnificent.

Cab

I've always loved this song. I guess everyone has those moments where they feel like they're alone.

There's just something about Train. Every song has that one line that's ridiculously quirky. In Drops of Jupiter it's "The best soy latte that you ever had", in All American Girl it's "I'm the leftover turkey for the world's mayonnaisey".

Mayonnaisey?

Really?

Okay, I'm in love.